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Friday, November 21, 2008

In Florida, Moving On and Trying to Heal

My move to Florida is done. I am very glad that I don’t have to pack another box or drive another Uhaul for a while. It was long drive. Since I was the only one driving, we had to stop for the night. The first stop was in New Jersey (almost into Delaware), the second stop was in North Carolina and then we spent a night in Fernandina Beach, FL with Ryan’s mom. The next morning, Tuesday, we arrived at mom’s house in Florahome. We spent a few days unloading the truck and putting the essentials inside and the rest in storage. We registered Princess Ivi for school and did some running around regarding that.

Things got pretty bad shortly after we got here. Ryan did not help in any way. He didn’t drive, he didn’t stay awake, he didn’t help unload the truck. Nothing.

Then on Saturday, he caused a huge scene and jeopardized my mom’s job, her home and the only place Princess Ivi and I have to stay. He did this by putting his need for drugs above anything else.

I have been feeling for some time now that Ryan was a selfish person who puts his needs above his own. I also discovered several instances when he lied to me. He also lied to many people in general conversations. He also exhibits abusive behavior and then justifies it by saying he was just angry, or he was just hurt, or he didn’t mean it.

Due to his behavior on Saturday, he was told to leave my mother’s home (owned by her bosses and provided to her as part of her pay). I do know that he checked himself into rehab. But because of his continued treatment of Princess Ivi and I, I have made the difficult decision to end my relationship with him. I wish him well but I have to take care of Princess Ivi and myself.

So at this point, I am relying on my relationship with my family and friends, my knitting, and my faith to help me heal.

Monday, November 3, 2008

One of those days....

Have you ever had one of those weeks where your luck was just really bad? Well, that is how our month has been.

First, my car got repossessed. :-(

Then we were able to get a car for $200.00 :-) but unfortunately, the fuel pump went out on it :-( We finally got the fuel pump fixed and then on Friday (Halloween) someone deflated my back tires. :-O We still aren't sure if the passenger side is popped or not. It looks like they may have slashed them. Ryan is working on it today but he just called to tell me that there is a lock on the rims (which we don't have and might not be able to get) so the tire might have to stay on it. I just put a post on Craigslist to sell it but since we are leaving on Saturday, that is not likely to happen by then. If we don't sell it and can't get the tire fixed, we may have to rent a trailer so the entire car will go on it instead of just the front tires.

On a good note, we are moving on Saturday. :-) Packing is coming along although without the car, it has been difficult to get all the boxes we need. Ryan will pick more up today along with the groceries we need to get by for the week.

Princess Ivi is even beginning to get excited. Of course when her friends are jerks to her, it makes her want to move faster. I am rushing around getting papers in order for her to start school.

As far as knitting goes, I was able to finish a few projects within the last couple weeks:

The Flirty Scarf (made for my neighbors mom for her birthday). Made with two (2) balls of Rowan Spray.

Fingerless Boucle Gloves made for Princess Ivi.

I am also working on finishing up a stocking, a shawl, and a baby blanket.